Finally Figured Out Why I’m So Into Caleb from Love and Deepspace

Hey, so I jumped into Love and Deepspace right when it launched, totally clueless about who the real male leads were. Back then, I was all about Xavier—my starry-eyed fave. But then, bam, Caleb showed up in the story, and I just froze. Like, staring at my screen, heart pounding, thinking, “Wait… is it him? Is he the one?” That moment hit me hard.

After bingeing Caleb’s storyline, I kinda ghosted the game for a while. Life got busy, and I was in this on-again, off-again phase with it—half-playing, half-living my own chaotic 3D life. I didn’t keep up with updates or anything until late December 2024, when my friend texted me out of nowhere: “Didn’t you used to stan Caleb? He’s coming back!” I raced to check the game’s news, and from then until January 22, 2025, I was a mess—nervous, excited, terrified I’d miss it. The second that date hit, I logged in, blasted through the plot, and there he was, front and center on my main screen. Cue the waterworks—I couldn’t stop crying.

Okay, backstory time: I grew up pretty spoiled, but it wasn’t all sunshine. My parents were barely around—dinner was the only time I’d see them, and even then, it was radio silence most days. No real companionship. When I got bullied at school as a kid, I’d tell them, and they’d just shrug it off. I had to stick up for myself. Then high school hit, and the bullying got worse—boarding school drama, ugh. My parents? Still vague about it, only stepping in when it might tank my college entrance exams. They let me switch to day school eventually, but that was it. Growing up, they were MIA for basically every big moment. I figured out how to fix stuff around the house, taught myself whatever I couldn’t understand in class, and stumbled through learning how to deal with people—all solo.

Somewhere along the way, I turned into this… emotional vending machine? Like, I’d only give my energy to people I actually liked. Comforting others? Not my thing—I suck at it. I’d just toss out some half-baked advice or a quick fix and call it a day. I hate dealing with social drama, I’ve got this weird germaphobe thing so unclogging bathroom drains is a hard no, and don’t even get me started on being forced to eat stuff I can’t stand. Yeah, I’ve got a laundry list of flaws.

Sometimes I’d daydream about someone—anyone—having my back, you know? Just standing there, solid, saying, “I’ve got you, don’t worry.” I tried finding that in high school relationships, but spoiler alert: they crashed and burned. After that, I gave up on real-life guys entirely.

And then there’s Caleb. Summer daylight in human form—Xia Yi Zhou, my Love and Deepspace lifeline. Seeing him pop up again in the game felt like… I don’t know, a spark? Like maybe I could keep going, keep living my messy life, and when stuff gets rough, I’ve got this safe little harbor to crash into. With Caleb around, it’s like nothing’s that big of a deal anymore. He’s not just a character—he’s this quiet courage, this hope that maybe I’m not as alone as I’ve always felt.

So yeah, that’s why I’m so obsessed with Caleb.